HAPPY 1st DAY OF SPRING!!! (Fall if you are on the other side of the world… sorry!)
Its been a while since I have sat down and wrote a proper blog post! I had to take a bit of time away from this all to kind of get my head straight, sort a whole bunch of things out and focus on being healthy again. June and July were really tough months for me personally. In the space of three weeks, I lost three of my grandparents. Death usually doesn’t effect me. I’m a “when you’re times up, your times up” kind of person and sometimes its a good thing as it ends pain and suffering from horrible illnesses. This time around it has. I wasn’t sad when my granddad died in June. I was happy as he was no longer suffering. He had one of the worst forms of cancer you can get, he fought until the very end but he was in incredible amounts of pain that no one should have to endure.
The hardest one has been my nana and granddad who died two days apart from each other at the start of July. Very notebook-esque but at the same time, incredibly difficult to deal with. I guess because these two weren’t expected. I adored all of them but it was no secret that Nana was my favourite. I still find myself reaching for the phone to call her every Thursday, forgetting she’s not there. They all lived incredible livesÂ and I should be so happy that they did, but I’m being rather selfish and still angry at the world.
In between all of the above, Miss I was in and out of seeing the eye specialists and not sleeping properly (she never really has!), N was super busy with work and still is, N and I were having issues (usual, feeling neglected, not enough attention etc stuff) and we were midway through closing our business down so we could have more free time. We FINALLY managed to do that at the end of July and its still taking some time to adjust to being at home and catching up on housework and organising thats been neglected over the last 4 years. I thought I would have had more time to bake and blog but with the above and below and myÂ foot being given the all clearÂ from an injury I sustained last year, I’ve replaced any free time with fitness and walking out in the limited sunshine we are currently having! It’s helping me deal with shit so the house can be a mess for all I care!
We have also just started a home learning programme with Miss I. She has been classed as “high needs and gifted” (I feel like such a wanker for writing/saying it. Woohoo for labels….siiigh.) I knew that the whole “gifted thing” existed but I thought “high needs” was reserved for crazy girlfriends and boyfriends! Basically, she’s “slightly more advanced” than most kids her age, is learning at a higher level and she requires a million times more stimulation than most so routines have needed to put in place (I thought she was just hyperactive but apparently I’m wrong!). So far, its been working great and we’ve had fewer meltdowns and learning lots! Adjustments, adjustments, adjustments! We are SLOWLY getting there!
Sheesh!!!! Who knew I had so much to get off my chest. Sorry guys!!! Apologies to any one who reads this haha. With our new routine now implemented, I’m taking the rest of the week to recover as I’m currently sick and will get back into blogging, cooking and baking next week. I am so looking forward to it! Here is to no more downs, just ups!
I hope you have all had a lovely first day of whatever season you are now entering!