Yesterday I was prepared for the worst scenario for everything.
I was prepared for the hangry outbursts because she wasn’t allowed to eat after 7am.
I was prepared for the 3 hour wait we had before her surgery.
I was prepared for what I would have to do if she flipped her shit while getting put under general anaesthetic.
I was prepared for her losing her sight.
I was prepared for the horrible wake up, the kicking, the screaming, the vomiting.
I was prepared for the pain and sleepless nights because that’s what the doctor told me would happen.
I was even prepared for her not waking up, morbid I know but hope for the best, expect the worst right?
I was prepared for a wanker of a day today.
What did Miss I do? She went under like a dream. She woke up without any tears, kicks or screams, polished off two ice blocks, a tub of ice cream, a hospital meal and a handful of fries and then came home and slept right through the night. Today there is minimal complaints about the pain. She’s sat on the couch eating a banana oat muffin and loving the fact that today, she gets to watch as much T.V as she wants while she recovers.
Her operation was a rather invasive one. Common (to fix a lazy eye) but invasive. If you’re squeamish, skip this paragraph. Her eye specialist sliced into her eyeballs, detached a muscle in each, re attached it somewhere else and then stitched her up. I knew that they’d be fishing around in there but it wasn’t until I saw the video this morning.. it made a bit more sense as to why they don’t really go into the specifics when they’re operating on your kid. You’d say no otherwise!
I underestimated how much she understood.
I underestimated her ability to handle big event like this.
I underestimated her ability to handle the pain and discomfort.
I underestimated her in general.
I feel shit and never again shall I underestimate my child.
Our journey maybe a rather frustrating rollercoaster but this kid blows me away at how she handles every situation thrown at her. She is pretty damn awesome and I fucking love her. To say that we are proud is a bit of an understatement.
Thank you for all of your kind words, messages, love and support. We are so incredible thankful and grateful that you are apart of our village.
Here’s to Moana and Paw Patrol on repeat for the next 72 hours while her newly realigned eyes settle and the drugs wear off! Have an amazing weekend.