#reallife #truth and all that #realness B/S. Today, I hit one big giant mental wall. I was being this HUGE downer and I couldn’t find anything to be happy about. Then I realised, I wasn’t actually happy and that I felt like I was starting to lose any sense of self and the little things I loved.
In between all the Paediatricians, Psychologists, eye surgery, soon to be more eye surgery and the constant uncertainty of N being self employed it felt like our life was going around and around in circles. I’ll be honest, it has been so boring to the point where going to the dairy next-door has been a welcomed outing and I got excited about it.
All of these non important little things were piling up and my focused has shifted from making sure I was doing the things I needed to, to keep myself in check, to trying to tackle the ever growing list of mundane boring shit that wasn’t actually important.
I was upstairs folding washing (one of those mundane boring things) when I realised that in the last few months, I hadn’t properly done any of the three things that I love that help keep me happy and sane. Baking, writing and exercise. Shit, I really need the exercise.
I also realised that I can’t really do my “job” as a wife, mum, friend and decent human being if I am not feeling all that flash or happy and it was time for a change of priorities.
So, I’m taking a bloody stance! It’s called the “F*ck The Little Things” stance and if you’re feeling like this, I think you should too.
It’s ok to push those little things back and take time to focus on the most important thing- YOU. Do something that makes YOU happy.
Those boring mundane little things are still going to be there tomorrow and the next day and the next day. You can totally tackle them once you’re in the right headspace.
“Remember to take care of yourself. You can’t pour from an empty cup.”